Tartu also brought me my book of this decate- Twilight series by visiting Twilight movie by flash of mind. I enjoy the impulse decisions some times as much traveling by impulse. 

During the last  week I first visited the movie 2 times, bought 3 books that we had in books stores+ordered the last (last 2 only in english), red the 4th in audio via youtube since ordered isnt arrived yet and 5th the unpublished I read from pfd as much they had... Every time I put another book down, knowing its about tho end, it made me sad. But when I looked around and returned live my real life to school and work, church, it made me happy as well. 

Yesterday I was specially interrupted by this: had to sing in service with youth choir, made slideshow in the early morning on last minute still reading some chapters and I was still attached to this charming unreal world thinking about most of the time. I prayed on the way to church since I felt so distracted to do my things to do list. But then I had luck and arranged all so I got to sing with choir and even got my singing voice back from cold and suddenly felt happy at the service  - God turned the charme to this unreal book series into charme to HIM that joy lasted all day long ...

Yes, yesterday evening I found out there was another book -unfinished but pulbished to fans (what a great idea) and of cource I had to read it all 246 pages as fast as I could (more than half missing like all the books are). But I am still happy of things I found from reading this series and still full of hope. I also brought me back something I knew -  I am bad letting  go of things, people. I dont why, but this book had message of love in it that I guess missed since the last 2 month events and it touched me like Touched by the angel, did. Liis would like it:) Yes the Twilight series fit fully my weekspots, but when I was analysing why missed that unreal world, I realized it wasnt only the fantasy world I miss so much. Yes I admit it was create love story about breaking rules and all that. But a lot more - wisdom, ever lasting battle supported by strong bounds, beauty of nature and music, our souls, power of free will, discovering new things, trying  to change bad to good ...

In 30 minutes I head from work to my 2.christmas party, this winter. This time its Kaljus youth Christmas party. Study time has made me stay and will stay late at work and friendships relationships I had before have become more distant. But everything has its price and I’m sure knowledge I get can be used in Gods field. Haven’t been in Tartu very long time - I do have discount card for bus and train, but no time to use it.

I am tired, often I don’t admit it to myself, but then I just follow sleep at work or bus. I know my limits and I am walking on these and only with inside power from God I am still working 1,25 time, taking classes and handling Kalju things. But I know I’m not in this alone :)

This holiday I dreamed to sleep and rest and then prepare for exams. But looks like this year its Kaljus ministry holiday: doing slides and showing them, need someone replace me on 31st since I need to be on ferry during Taize night... Cause seems I am going to spent new years eve on a ferry according to today’s plans.

And as greeting card please check this out: http://angeleyes2.com/platinum6/magiccard.cgi?122305005419099. Maybe isn’t deep, but just different and I guess different is something I value at the moment.

P.S I have 25 cm high Christmas tree on my desk, that’s my Christmas decoration I see most of the time:) Snow is not up to us:)